Seriously my mood is super bad today.

One moment I am very happy, One moment my mood go all the way down.

I broke down when I was in the bus on the way to work today.

After I step into the office lift lobby, I wipe off my tears and happened to saw my colleague

and took a lift up together. Controlling my tears is so hard.

My eyes were swollen for a few hours. Sighs.

The moment I think I owned my parents so much when I was in my primary, secondary,

private diploma days they paid for my tuition fees, and all,
I just couldn't control my tears.

好难接受！

Making myself happy sometimes, it may just for a few minutes in a day.

Sorry, I know I should let you know what happened to me today in the
morning but I couldn't bring myself up and tell you everything.

I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to be sarcastic about it. You should know
what I mean if you are reading this blog entry.

I just don't want to leave this world with a lot uncleared debt.

I don't want to own any people around me anything le.
I just want to be myself.

I just want to do whatever I can now is to work harder, finished up my diploma and earn more money and return back the money to my parents.
I don't want to own any money or anything from anyone.
我欠他们太多太多了。